He knows that she dislike people gambling, especially her loves one. He is feel that he failed so many things. He failed to feel happy at time as he believe to have been stressed. He failed to take control of his mind cause he can't stop thinking. He failed to cheer her up at time when she need him? He failed to be a stronger n better man. He failed to get her things she likes, in his mind he always wanted to get all those things she likes but he is unable to, due to some reason. He know at time she want some things to keep by her which is given by him. He is just nobody and why he keep thinking of becoming somebody which other always think " that impossible ''. Just because he wants a better life for him and his family with her. He is not addicted (please truth him). He just want to get away from stress for awhile. it is not about the gambling, it is not about winning or losing. It is about the games. He did not mean to nelgect her. He still loves n care for her. He really does, He really loves her. He really mean it. Sorry for for the nelgect and anythings that he had did wrong. truthfully sorry. At time, we understand everyone have stress, most people will use divertion or do things they likes to move away for stress for awhile. But what he mean here is that he really do loves her deeply truthfully and nothing can replace her. Nothing.

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P.S : Sorry Girl, hubby understand that some of the things i did had cause your anger. I know what is it. I swear i am not addicted to them. I am sorry. This does not change my loves for you. I still loves you as much and i really do. Sorry, I loves you. please forgive my mistake.

Loves,

Ray