Labels: JayWalkRayI hope people can understand me, please!!! It is so hard to please everyone. Please, someone tell me what to do. Advise me to what should i do and how should do things/ manage time/manage events and problems. Is there someone ever though of how i feel and what my feeling?
I hate to reject people or tell someone off but i hate to been sandwich too. It is hard to be nice all the time and thinking for others at times. life really suck big time. someone please save from all this.
To my girl:
I am always trying to please both family members and my girl. Time is always the big problem. I know time is less to acompany all or for all. I am always trying to plan things out. But I am no superman. I am really really under pressure. Time for work, school and most time i left with will be trying to plan for my girl. but due to different in work time, time bacame scarce in between. I really can't change anythings, the only things to change is only if i dont work. Sorry girl this is what deep in hubby heart. Hubby want you to be happy, always trying my very best in all mean to make you happy. I know after a 6 days work week you really want a day of hubby for your own. I really understand. But due to my dad request, I hard for me to say no. I understand you will feel down. I hope you understand at time is not hubby don't want but things and events always came the wrong time.It is even not enough time for me to react. I am sorry for that. I could only say I am useless cause i really no superman. Hubby really hope girl is able to pull through all those with hubby to our future, and not leaving me alone to handle things. All I will ask for is your support, understanding and encouragement. All those will be enough to keep me going. Thank you my girl, loves hubby.
To my parent:
I understand time spend is less. I don't to compare with other. But have i not done enough? what is really expected from me? am I useless and heartless in your heart? So what if you said you have brought me up till now i am? It still does not mean that i have and must kill all my events and help yours? This is a request and should not be a demand or force act (THERE IS NEVER A MUST). Why do you guys always think that your events or things are always more important that mine? Have you spare thought for me and what i my feeling? SO YOU THINK YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT? (THERE IS NEVER AN ALWAYS RIGHT). I am just showing respect. So you feel that bringing me up till now and doing all those, working so hard because for the family, for me? So i have to "help" in whatever unconditionally in return to so call repay all those??? So I am the want to blame afterall? If I don't help I so call selfish? Heartless? If you feel that you had done enough for me. So from today on ward, I will proof to you, I will be somewhere there without YOUR HELP and I SWEAR!!! I am no longer a kid. I will not rely on you anymore and this is what you said to me. I will proof you that I can still live on without YOUR HELP. Don't think all things that you do are always right. And not only remember those things that your do for me, please go and think though as I do stand out to help when the family need help.
LIFE SUCK BIG TIME. I HATE MY LIFE. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? F**K!!!
I FILL THIS POST WITH TEARS, ANGER, DISSAPOINTMENT AND PURE FEELING.